What am I looking for?

Hmm.

The family is ill.

Still.

Hubby had a tooth pulled.

Briana will miss another day of classes.

House is a wreck.

Linen closet looks lovely with all the crud in spacebags.

Found a lovely Antique White color to paint the walls.

I think it makes me happier.

I keep surfing through pages of blogs.

I read some,

I watch some,

I pass some by.

But in the end I feel a need to keep searching...

for what?

I wish I knew.

The best rational I can conceive

is I am looking for someone else to create my perfect blog

so I don't have to try to.

And if I don't try,

well then I don't fail.

Hmm.

I like the blogs where they are creating things...
Ordinary Life Magic

U Create

Just Something I made
I also like ones with good pictures...

The Fern Mossery

Orangette

The Magic Onions

I love blogs with free printable...

The Background Fairy

The Graphics Fairy

I love all the blogs I follow for different reasons. It should be obvious to me that no one's blog could ever be all that is me.

So I guess until I locate a blog that:

Talks about home moms, that love to read, and color, and draw, and do crafts, organize, cook, download free things, look at pictures, married early,loves her eccentric family...

and learn more about their Asperger Syndrome, High Functioning Autistic, Selective Mutism, Generalized, Social, School, Separation Anxiety, Childhood depression, extremely high IQ, preteen adolescent daughter, who loves art, theater, singing, reading, her own fashion and nothing else, homeschooler, kid.

And since we are being completely unreasonable here...

I'd also like to know about gluten and casein free diets and

how to convince a 12 year old to try it.

How to convince my now unemployed for 6 months, with no job prospects, husband, whom I love dearly, and have been with for 17 years now that "lottery winner" is not a job title he can apply for nor is it something he can manifest from thin air like he is currently attempting. I'd also like the no exercise, no pills, no calorie counting, nor expensive prepackaged meals, or weekly meetings diet that will make me skinny in a reasonable amount of time(tomorrowish) with no sagging, bagging, loose skin, heart problems, liver problems or other body damage not listed here. I want my pets to all BEHAVE. The big old one will no longer lick, shed, groan, get pushy for attention ect. The middle dog will no longer be aggressive to other dogs or people that resemble dogs. He will remember he is a dog and not act like a bully child we forgot we had. And the youngest will grow out of her 3year long baby stage and resume peeing and pooping outside, stop acting like a cat on the furniture and no longer have the desire to eat the other animals or her own poop. My cat will take his gifts to the neighbors doorstep and not mine. The snake will keep hiding. And last of all I'd like the daily maid service to begin soon as I am running out of clothes to wear and we are forced to use paper plates and plastic silverware. All that in a blog and I will be your biggest fan....

In the mean time it is no wonder no one reads all this crap I write but it is sure a relief for me. Now I will wave my magic Valium wand and drift off to sleep. When I awaken all will be right with the world... Or at least it will be while I sleep.

Sweet Dreams and all.